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Hi everyone

On Wednesday evening, Zizou my dear cat had a terrible attack of not being able to breathe, and convulsed and started to turn blue in his mouth, and we rushed him to the emergency vets and just made it there in time. Since then he's been at his usual vet. X-rays showed a mass in his neck which had affected his breathing, so we put him on lots of drugs for pain and to clear the fluid that had gathered in his lungs. He improved a little bit, but the vet recommended a scan of his heart. Yesterday this showed that his heart was very bad: he had a thickened ventricle and also a clot there that could have dislodged at any time, causing another attack, or paralysis. This may have been a congenital problem made worse by his other issues, or the stress from the earthquakes, or a number of causes. The sonographer said there was really no course of treatment that could be expected to work given his other problems. He was in cardiac failure, basically, and his heart could not pump the blood around his body.

Because of this, and because of how much distress he was in, and sure to remain in, I made the decision to euthanize. The vet gave him an injection while he was nestled on my knee, and he slipped away. We buried him in my mum's garden.

I've gone on and on here about what a wonderful cat he was. He was truly one of the loves of my life and everyone who knew him was delighted by his affectionate, intelligent, grouchy, beautiful personality. I don't know what I'm going to do without him.

Anyway, I thought I should let you all know.

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bflyw
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:15 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
tesserae_
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:21 pm (UTC)
I am so very sorry. Losing the cat of your heart is so hard...
embroiderama
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:24 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry. :(
nanoochka
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:31 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear that. :( I had to euthanize my cat of 17 years a couple years ago and it was so incredibly hard; for months after I kept thinking I saw him out of the corner of my eye everywhere in the house. It sounds like you made a good decision, though, and in time it'll get easier. <3
maraceles
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:38 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry.
bulldogscram
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:44 pm (UTC)
I am so, so sorry to read this. *hugs*
deirdre_c
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:51 pm (UTC)
Oh dear. I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how hard this is for you. *sends you all the hugs*
harrigan
Feb. 25th, 2012 08:55 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss. Cherish the memories, and know that you are in all our thoughts!
untitleddemo
Feb. 25th, 2012 09:00 pm (UTC)
♥♥♥
drvsilla
Feb. 25th, 2012 09:25 pm (UTC)
He was so great & brought so much greatness into your life, and definitely repaid your devotion; it's what makes the eventual loss so worthwhile. You made a brave decision, and one that was best for him, but I empathize with how tough it still is to make. Love & hugs to you. <3
veronamay
Feb. 25th, 2012 09:34 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you had to lose him this way.
mickeym
Feb. 25th, 2012 09:46 pm (UTC)
Oh, honey. I'm so sorry :( My condolences for your loss.

I like to imagine our kitties all playing together up in heaven, chasing mice and rolling in catnip. Mine's been there for over six years now; she'll take your boy under her wing and show him around.

*hugs you tight*
innie_darling
Feb. 25th, 2012 10:54 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, sugar. He sounded devoted to you and I know how much I enjoyed reading about him.
emmademarais
Feb. 25th, 2012 11:06 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm so sorry, hon! /hugs/

I've been the one petting a dear companion animal when they were sent on by the vet so I know how hard that can be. Please let your loved ones - virtual and IRL - take care of you a while as you grieve.

I know loss is all that's on your mind right now, but be assured, someday it will lessen and your wonderful memories will grow strong enough to keep the sadness at bay so you can remember with fondness the gift of his presence in your life. I know that's how I feel about mine now that she's been gone a couple of years.

/hugs again for good measure/
sagetan
Feb. 25th, 2012 11:12 pm (UTC)
I'm so, so sorry. I hope you're doing okay. *hugs*
missyjack
Feb. 25th, 2012 11:46 pm (UTC)
I had to out my dog to sleep a couple of weeks ago , so yeah hard times *hugs*
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macbyrne
Feb. 26th, 2012 12:04 am (UTC)
I'm so terribly terribly sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you. *hugs you*
roguebitch
Feb. 26th, 2012 12:39 am (UTC)

Oh, I am so sorry. I've only had to do that once with a pet, but it's never pleasant even if it's the most kind thing to do.

I just came back from the emergency vet for Ransom (who came home) and I'm waiting to hear what age is doing to him.

*hugs*

lilacsigil
Feb. 26th, 2012 12:57 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry, and glad that Zizou had you with him at the end.
scarletscarlet
Feb. 26th, 2012 01:37 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. It really does sound like you made the best decision for him. Such an awful situation to experience. I know I'll be a mess when my old boy goes.
janissa11
Feb. 26th, 2012 01:48 am (UTC)
Oh my god, Greta. Oh my god. I am so terribly sorry. Oh no. OH NO. I know how much you loved him, and I remember the earthquake and him disappearing and then being FOUND after so long. I am so sorry, oh my god. God I wish I could hug you.
cereta
Feb. 26th, 2012 04:18 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss.
azephirin
Feb. 26th, 2012 05:34 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. He sounded like such a sweet, smart, funny, resourceful cat.
raina_at
Feb. 26th, 2012 07:40 am (UTC)
Oh, that's terrible! I'm so sorry for your loss! *hugs*
arliss
Feb. 26th, 2012 09:40 am (UTC)
Oh sweetheart, I'm so, so sorry. All too many of us know that pain. It sucks that their lives are so much shorter than ours that they leave us long before we're ready to let them go.

He knew he was loved, and the life he had with you was the best he could have had. May your heart be eased and the memories be sweet.
ewanmax
Feb. 26th, 2012 01:52 pm (UTC)
Zizou
I am so sorry for your loss, but happy that Zizou had such a wonderful friend in you.
I am glad that he is there in the garden enjoying the sun and the flowers. That's where two of of my very dear friends are; Jake and Molly.
killabeez
Feb. 26th, 2012 02:01 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you.
ravurian
Feb. 26th, 2012 02:28 pm (UTC)
Oh, my dear. I'm so very sorry for your loss. He was, as you say, a marvellous character, a wonderful friend, and we've had a very real sense of him, I think, through your delight in him on here.
halfshellvenus
Feb. 28th, 2012 12:24 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so sorry he's gone.

So sudden and so heartbreaking, but you did the kindest thing for him that you could. Poor baby.

*hugs*
ia_ne
Feb. 28th, 2012 11:04 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry! *hugs*
sarcasticval
Mar. 1st, 2012 01:09 am (UTC)
I'm sorry, lady :(
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